It looks like I’m  gonna be one of those billion people who talk about love. The thing is that I don’t wanna give advice cause I don’t have the smallest clue of how love should work out properly and in fact I believe there shouldn’t be any. You meet different people, with  different characters, with different tastes and you can’t  be perfect to all of them, sooner or later  we all  make mistakes. I heard the most inspiring love quote ever  few days ago and it was something  like this:  ” The one is not the one who loves you the most, it’s the one who gets you better than no one else”.   Well…wow.  It’s like I found a life buoy in this angry sea of love I’m sinking. I’ve been wondering myself if I ever loved someone as I pretend to believe in those times and honestly I don’t know what I should say  but I tend to think that the  answer is “No”! I don’t know what love is. I’ve been in love many times but I didn’t actually loved someone and this quote it’s like a definition to my kind of love, a definition that I’ve been searching for a  long time, it saved me and gave the answers of some pretty haunting questions.

I’m afraid. I’m so afraid to love.  You suffer and you get hurt even if you just like a person, I don’t even wanna imagine how it’s like when you love.  I had 2 choices every time, to settle on that “in love” thing or  to love someone. Driven by fear I guess I’ve always picked the first option, lying to myself and saying that I do love.  I didn’t . Cause now I realized that I didn’t felt understood and this is one of the most important things to me. I didn’t found  that perfect balance that I’m  searching for in a man. Not yet. It was all just  a beautiful experience, like a golden chain on which you hang your pendant as a result of it. Even though I’m a little confused I know I  will be able to take a risk and stop fooling myself when it’s about loving my other half, because if it’s really my other half we won’t have to struggle to work things out.


7 thoughts on “Uhm…Love?!

  1. “The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you’ll see their flaws. That’s just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don’t last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they’re out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness’ sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it’s seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship.”

  2. Your picture is beautiful and very captivating. I think your point about love requiring a sense of understanding, I agree. I should like to add that when two people are in love, the result is they inspire each other to thrive. That’s what it is like between my girlfriend and I. So I think a really good question to ask in regard to relationships/people- how does this person inspire me? Or fail to inspire me? Haha. Anyway, thank you very much for sharing.

  3. Such honest words and feelings accompanied by your art in a meaningful way brings an appreciation of art and artist not possible in any other way. Love is a very vast and complex entity. To me, it is the most powerful of all emotions. It is often attended by every good or bad thing we can experience in life. It takes us to our greatest highs, though fleeting, and then it can leave us destroyed for a lifetime if handled carelessly. The strangest thing about love is it leaves you when you most desire it and then fills your life with more than you can hold if you confess to not want it or pay no attention to finding it. To enjoy the greatest pleasure of love, one must first love themselves and be comfortable with every blemish, every past wrong. One must be in love with their own beauty and darkness. One can’t decide to be this way, it has to evolve over time. What I mean to say here is, acceptance of oneself as they truly exist then opens the door for another to love one in the same way, and so the couple love each other with the same acceptance they grant themselves. This is how people marry and stay married for 30, 50, 70 years. But, these milestones are never easy to obtain, speaking to the difficulty in finding that balance between two people that keeps them together. It explains how love can be fulfilling and tragic. Just my thoughts.

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