You may know me or recognize some of my artworks from my ex-blog S.Laura Artworks. Well I can only say that if life ever thought me something, is that I have to work very hard for every single thing I own. Its like I’m not allowed to “take advantage” of some things, actions that once were made with joy by others for me or even gifts. I feel guilty, I feel like I don’t deserve it . That’s why I started fresh, all by myself. I know I don’t have that much to catch up but still, it’s going to be hard at the beginning. At least I know that I’m going to make it and I’m going to be very proud of myself in the end.
I often used to underestimate myself and I still do from time to time but I realised that I’m not the person who I thought I was. I admit that I have some big selfconfidence issues and beside that I am also very stubborn so if I want to solve my problems properly I have to do it on my own. The truth is that if you really want something you do everything to get it… I guess I wasn’t that motivated ,till now.
We all do that ,we all get thrown down by some unpleasent life events untill we find the right motivation, the force we need to fight and move on with our head up. Funny thing is that my motivation is not about the material things or the compliments I receive.No! I find my motivation in people who think that I cannot do this, people who consider me weak. I’m not weak! I’m like a building under construction, just a few bricks away from everything that I had planned for me.
So , I invite you to watch me bloom!